Over the past thirty-ish years, I’ve experimented with many different forms of journaling. I started with a green diary with an oil-painted cat portrait printed on the front and a small, incredibly secure lock on the side. It’s been LiveJournal, AIM away messages, Moleskines, voice recordings, and nothing at all.
When I started my business, I also started a blog. The blog turned out to be a huge roadblock, as I could never seem to write the perfectly crafted, well-researched and cited resource for all things sex and intimacy. It became a list item that got shuffled into next month every month. When I decided to stop trying to write an academic journal, the blog became a kind of public, living journal.
The depths of myself will be kept to my current journal, a gold-flecked reproduction of Gustav Klimpt’s Portrait of Adele Bloch-Bauer I that I bought at a kooky lady store in Buffalo, NY, my hometown. Here, you’ll get a look into what’s up for me at a moment in time. What I’m thinking about, things coming up in sessions, something new I’m learning about or working on in myself. Sometimes I will be in the initial scary stages, sometimes in the messy middle, sometimes on the other side of something.
My coaching practice is built on a foundation of relational healing. We can only learn to show up differently in relationships with practice and that’s what my coaching containers develop: embodied experience of feeling safety in a relationship. When we can have deep, vulnerable, more intimate relationships, we can have better sex. This is why all of our attachment wounding shows up in our sexuality, and the reason I believe the lens of sexuality offers us the most insight into ourselves.
This is the lens through which I see much of the world, and this is the lens through which I will be sharing my thoughts here.
I do not profess to be an all-knowing, totally healed person who doesn’t need to take her own advice. Through exploring my own observations about myself, my clients, and the world around me, it is my hope that you readers will see a bit of yourself in my own story and find ways to connect with others around all of the unseen, internal experiences that we humans share.
This blog will surely change and develop over time. For now, I will post a few archived blogs here, and I encourage you to submit a question or subject to be explored more deeply in my upcoming Ask Meryl series.
Thank you for being here. xox M